I've Always

I've always been the guy who puts on a smile and pushes through the pain. I have always been the person who no matter how he felt would put people first. I always want to see the good in people. I always want people to see their worth. Since I have been bullied and insecure all my life. I have always thought I lacked confidence. Now that I am here at youth America college I realize that people see me as confident. At first I didn't understand since I am still insecure. But they don't see insecurity as having no confidence. No everyone has insecurities. They view my confidence as not being afraid to speak into someone's life. Never being afraid to say the right thing. Never being afraid to push past the barrier of pain that I hid beneath the surface and serve the people who I can see hurt. These people are the people who feel the same as me. Everyone always ask who would die for their fellow man so that they wouldn't feel pain. And I know I would. I would gladly die on the cross just to let people know they don't have to hurt like me. I would rather people see me happy and breathe light into their life, and take all the pain away and feel all their pains and hurts. Than never feel pain myself. I realize know that nice guys do finish last. But not because they are less than everyone. No because they are willing to give up their happiness so someone else can have it. I would gladly give my life even for one person to know they are loved and they don't have to feel any pain.  

The Burden

The pain I feel is a burden

I know I can't change your past

But I want to

I want to take all your pain away

The pain you felt day to day

See you never knew that I was going to be in love with you

I don't like that I can't help every person feel the love they need

I know I can't touch every single person in the world

And that's the biggest burden to me

The burden of truth is tied into love

And that's all something we dream of

To love and be loved

The truth to everything leads us to see

That he is the love we all need

I want everyone to know the truth

Because in truth they find love

And honestly we all need the truth to provide the shove of love

Original Light

Jesus, he is the way the truth and the life

And he is always the original light 

Making the darkness see it's dark ness

Making the light see it's dark less

The ability to see his own glory was taken away 

When Adam and Eve listened to the snake who made us think we were horny

Horny to be as we weren't made to be

The pursuit of perfection made us see our real reflection

A perfect creation made by a perfect creator

He created a nation who was stained by its self perceived gory glory

We thought it would be okay to steal the real light away

And give the people artificial light 

Created by the same mind that thought no sight was okay

See we were created in his image and we thought that we had to improve apon a light that came along with our package 

Instead of a real present we opened the rap age

The age of the generation who thinks there is no real light but all they had to do was step into the son

He gave his life because he wanted to be our one

Please Don't Make Fun of Me

Please don't make fun of me

You see I'm no different from you

I know you used to cry too

Just because I have these cuts on my arm

Doesn't mean I'm not worthy, doesn't mean I will cause you harm

You see I love you I just hate me

My life has been about disappointment and sorrow

I feel like on the inside I'm only hollow

But once a story I was told 

I remember that I was 8 years old

See it was about this man named Jesus 

Who came down from heaven just to redeem us

He died on a cross, just an old rugged tree

He never wanted us to be harmed or fall to the world plee

He wanted to give his life to you and yes even me

The kid who you used to sit by in class

But everyday you said things that made me fragile like glass

But Jesus, jesus he did all he could he allowed his mean bullies to nail him to wood

So if you are going to pick and nag at me

Go ahead and string me up on a tree

I don't mind to die among men

But it would be an honor to die for him

His Art

See Satan, his art isn't powerful 

But Jesus his art is more so

I wanna see you do that, Lord

But first let me stop and take a photo

See we value ourselves and we value are sin

When really satan just wants us to give in

But Jesus he wants to give us, because he knows our souls have turned to dust

He stretches out his hand but will you take it ? Or just play with that other man

I don't mean literally but more an idol

Why do we value sin over the bible 

See Jesus did so much for us excepting nothing back

But Satan has asked for our righteousness that we had in our lap

And he got it through lies and deceit 

But Jesus he wasn't going to let us accept defeat

So his life he gave us and gave us he did

See he really just wants you to realize you're his kid

No Time Table

Let me get something clear,

Jesus is not a schedule

Jesus does not use one

See he wants to always be moving

Kinda like the kid who sits in the back of the class because he has ADHD 

And not one person can accept the fact that 

That kid doesn't conform to society or rules that really are only made to keep everyone from feeling less

But really it makes us selfish and full of pride

See when we can follow the guide lines

It makes us feel better than those who can't or won't

We are self righteous just lost sheep who found a tree instead of a pasture

And really we are all looking for our master

The one who doesn't run on that time table we do

The one that moves around out of his seat because he knows we are stuck like glue

When we all think that the rules are our savior 

That's really when we need to realize we have all lost our flavor

See we are called to be salt

And salt is something you can eat and you find almost everywhere

So why do we stay confined to a chair?

When in reality

We are called to be like Jesus and not let the world define our time table like we are some form of fetus

9 months you see that's how long it is

For those of you who didn't know 

We have to shine and let our light glow

You see we aren't stuck in the dark anymore 

We have to move around the room and not think we are stuck to the floor

See we are all born and he wants us all to be ready

For something greater than we have seen before

So go on and be yourself that's what he made you for 

WORDS

                        WORDS

Words, are the only thing in this world that are not seen but can create and destroy

                       WORDS

Words, are something we take for granted

                       WORDS

Words, can shape and mold your life or they can be allowed to shape someone else's 

                       WORDS

All it takes are three words to inspire and three to crush, I love you or I hate you 

                       WORDS

Words, are something we both control and can not control at all

                       WORDS

They can be given or taken away

                       WORDS

They can make you feel good or they can hurt

                       WORDS 

Speak carefully, think even more so, for out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks